Begin to realized am not the person I once knew
I will cry for you
I will die

Die For You

even the stars refuse to shine..
even the best sometimes falls down..

im just an ordinary person that commit mistakes.
dont be so hard on me i know im a fool but that doesn't mean you're just an option. and if your saying you are, you are my only option and there's no alternative when it comes to whose im loving

Wag ka nang umiyak, sa mundong pabago-bago
pag-ibig ko ay totoo
ako ang iyong bangka, kung magalit man
ang alon, ng panahon, sabay tayong aahon

Kung wala ka nang maintindihan
Kung wala ka nang makapitan
Kapit ka sa akin, kapit ka sa akin
Di kita bibitawan

Wag kang umiyak, mahaba man ang araw
uuwi ka sa yakap ko
wag mo nang damdamin kung wala ako sayong tabi
iiwan kong puso ko sa yo
at kung pakiramdam mo’y wala ka nang kakampi
isipin mo ako dahil puso’t isip ko’y
nasa yong tabi

…di kita pababayaan

Kapit ka, kumapit ka
(para sa buhay ng buhay ko)

amf! nagising din ako sa tamang oras.
she may be few minutes late but it's worth waiting in exchange of a good mood&conversation and besides I'm always late for couple of days.

darn I'm bored here(home), been stuck for 3day no class. Some may say am lucky to have enough rest though they have a point my mind's depleting, can't even remember the last chapter discussed by my instructors. DARN! 15 more wrath of aqueous to go for "pearl of the orients" will be fine and my life's draining youth will vanquish another term.

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another blank day.. lame lame lame!
been raining since I woke up but I love it makes my fiery moods to be castaway. I've been thinkin bout my tulips?
wondering what she's doing,thinkin and longing Lolz enough with the emo. I just miss her badly and been thinking bout her lately

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weird dreamI had a dream with someone(i really don't know her. first it was like she's dreamin bout me and I asked her(bout some quarrel we had) hoping she'd reply and to my surprise she did and so I jump unto her bed and wake her up. I told her all my heart's words how i loved her and cared for her AND all of a sudden change scene my bro and her sis already knew each other and havin some talks.

The next venue is at the pool that usually happen when GraduatingClass are on tour. I saw all of me colleagues,friends(old ones) and girls("damn! koreans someone shouted"). Because I was so confused what was happening I asked one of my old friend and he answer "Froshman party ata! acquaintance" it is so weird but at the same time I'm glad it happened and I answered him back "Ge punta lang ako sa kabila"(which is like a VIP one) and so I entered a bar with unfamiliar faces and then CUTTT!!

I woke up and back to real world. DARN! it's already 250am have to get online or she might get pissed off. After few minutes of putting myself into one, I'm now awake.


Continuing..

what a day.. halos buong araw na ako hindi nakatulog kahapon. buti na lang nagising niya ako nung natulog ako . i love you so much. you are my happiness and my sorrow

hmm.. nu ba ngyari sa araw na ito?


almost 12pm when i got a chance to sleep (and I'm happy i did) when i woke up(30mins later) noticed that am late in my reinforced concrete design(RCD1) class and DAMN!! its 35deg Celsius. I was rushing to get in my class even if I'm 25mins late and so I got in(PWEEW!).

After class, on the way home I was thinking that maybe by that time someone must have called(unluckily..she didn't but its ok). Missing her so much makes me smile despite the temperature that time. Got in the train(LRT2) and I saw 2 cunning studs from FEU (but I really didn't notice them cause I know a better person than them) and after a few station I slept(specifically a nap) when I heard the two which is beside me talking bout the rain.. my brain instantly woke up I said to myself "what the...RAIN!!" and i grab my backpack and look inside if theres something i could use (Pwew!) an umbrella.

Leaving the KATIPUNAN LRT Station was easy and I took a ride leading to MARIKINA BAYAN and from there a Tricycle. Got home and ate 4 slices of pizza ,some chat with my mom and went to bed and have a puff after the stick was done I fall asleep (4-1030pm)

I woke up again, and my tummy is grumbling so bad and went to bathroom. After that, the most awaiting time of the day come, I can talk to her and be fascinated by her words(Ahh the feeling of the unconditonal and relieved)

iloveyousomuchjen

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I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love




*** well am happy that I got there(again) and enjoying coz i know its my time in world,so I am living it as I want it. IF darkness falls down on me again I have no regrets and as my end time comes I'll still be smiling in my shallow grave

iloveyousomuchjen