Begin to realized am not the person I once knew
I will cry for you
I will die

Die For You

even the stars refuse to shine..
even the best sometimes falls down..

im just an ordinary person that commit mistakes.
dont be so hard on me i know im a fool but that doesn't mean you're just an option. and if your saying you are, you are my only option and there's no alternative when it comes to whose im loving

Wag ka nang umiyak, sa mundong pabago-bago
pag-ibig ko ay totoo
ako ang iyong bangka, kung magalit man
ang alon, ng panahon, sabay tayong aahon

Kung wala ka nang maintindihan
Kung wala ka nang makapitan
Kapit ka sa akin, kapit ka sa akin
Di kita bibitawan

Wag kang umiyak, mahaba man ang araw
uuwi ka sa yakap ko
wag mo nang damdamin kung wala ako sayong tabi
iiwan kong puso ko sa yo
at kung pakiramdam mo’y wala ka nang kakampi
isipin mo ako dahil puso’t isip ko’y
nasa yong tabi

…di kita pababayaan

Kapit ka, kumapit ka
(para sa buhay ng buhay ko)

amf! nagising din ako sa tamang oras.
she may be few minutes late but it's worth waiting in exchange of a good mood&conversation and besides I'm always late for couple of days.

darn I'm bored here(home), been stuck for 3day no class. Some may say am lucky to have enough rest though they have a point my mind's depleting, can't even remember the last chapter discussed by my instructors. DARN! 15 more wrath of aqueous to go for "pearl of the orients" will be fine and my life's draining youth will vanquish another term.

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another blank day.. lame lame lame!
been raining since I woke up but I love it makes my fiery moods to be castaway. I've been thinkin bout my tulips?
wondering what she's doing,thinkin and longing Lolz enough with the emo. I just miss her badly and been thinking bout her lately

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weird dreamI had a dream with someone(i really don't know her. first it was like she's dreamin bout me and I asked her(bout some quarrel we had) hoping she'd reply and to my surprise she did and so I jump unto her bed and wake her up. I told her all my heart's words how i loved her and cared for her AND all of a sudden change scene my bro and her sis already knew each other and havin some talks.

The next venue is at the pool that usually happen when GraduatingClass are on tour. I saw all of me colleagues,friends(old ones) and girls("damn! koreans someone shouted"). Because I was so confused what was happening I asked one of my old friend and he answer "Froshman party ata! acquaintance" it is so weird but at the same time I'm glad it happened and I answered him back "Ge punta lang ako sa kabila"(which is like a VIP one) and so I entered a bar with unfamiliar faces and then CUTTT!!

I woke up and back to real world. DARN! it's already 250am have to get online or she might get pissed off. After few minutes of putting myself into one, I'm now awake.


Continuing..

what a day.. halos buong araw na ako hindi nakatulog kahapon. buti na lang nagising niya ako nung natulog ako . i love you so much. you are my happiness and my sorrow

hmm.. nu ba ngyari sa araw na ito?


almost 12pm when i got a chance to sleep (and I'm happy i did) when i woke up(30mins later) noticed that am late in my reinforced concrete design(RCD1) class and DAMN!! its 35deg Celsius. I was rushing to get in my class even if I'm 25mins late and so I got in(PWEEW!).

After class, on the way home I was thinking that maybe by that time someone must have called(unluckily..she didn't but its ok). Missing her so much makes me smile despite the temperature that time. Got in the train(LRT2) and I saw 2 cunning studs from FEU (but I really didn't notice them cause I know a better person than them) and after a few station I slept(specifically a nap) when I heard the two which is beside me talking bout the rain.. my brain instantly woke up I said to myself "what the...RAIN!!" and i grab my backpack and look inside if theres something i could use (Pwew!) an umbrella.

Leaving the KATIPUNAN LRT Station was easy and I took a ride leading to MARIKINA BAYAN and from there a Tricycle. Got home and ate 4 slices of pizza ,some chat with my mom and went to bed and have a puff after the stick was done I fall asleep (4-1030pm)

I woke up again, and my tummy is grumbling so bad and went to bathroom. After that, the most awaiting time of the day come, I can talk to her and be fascinated by her words(Ahh the feeling of the unconditonal and relieved)

iloveyousomuchjen

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I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love




*** well am happy that I got there(again) and enjoying coz i know its my time in world,so I am living it as I want it. IF darkness falls down on me again I have no regrets and as my end time comes I'll still be smiling in my shallow grave

iloveyousomuchjen

walang gana talaga tues-wed potaness wholeday na nakamulat ang mata.. knockdown na ako sa skul pati sa bahay knockdown din.. hindi ko tuloy inabutan mmmm ano na kaya nangyari dun? sana ok lang un :D love yah

waaalaaaang gaahana naman iyon

woah what a day.. one blink and you wouldn' even notice that the day was over. parang kailan lang totoy pa at walang kaaalam alam sa mundo, SIGH parang kahapon lng naglalaro ka nung baby ka tpos ngaun 20 ka na dami ng nangyari mga kailangan itago habang buhay at itapon-ibaon sa isang iglap.. bukas makalawa matatanda at uugod ugod na.. ung mga inakala nating mangyayari hindi pala matutupad at kung ano ang binabaliwala ang sya namang uusbong.. masarap ang buhay ngunit sa bilis ng pagikot nito d na natin namamalayan kung ano ba talaga ang nakalipas na syang bumubuo sa atin.. bgyan importansya ang nakaraan at gunitain ang pusong nagdurugo sa pinapangarap.. wag natin kalimutan ang magandang kahapon at pagpatuloy ang nasimulan gang sa pagbangon ng katapusan.. miss ko na banda ko ang buhay ko.. bumalik ka na bumalik na kayo MZEBOY

for the last few day i've try to be numb so I could heal fast and now i can say maybe not fully recovered from fatigue. i miss what should be happening for the moment but thus its hard i'm happy to experience that memoirs i know its impossible for it to happen again but the hope for a new beginning is there.

and now im happy sitting infront of my computer desk typing foolish words that will ease me for the boring day pwew i miss you soleil

ok un ah.. delete friends pa sa friendster ok ka talaga bigla taas mo LOL hmmm ok lang bilis din kasi ngyari e oki lang im proud d pa rin ak kumakupas thanks to you love yah muaahugs

shit ano ba tong ngyayari sa akin.. tae tinamaan na naman ako
lagi ko hinahanap ang taong ayaw na magpakita,umiiwas,at walang interes sa akin
pano ko maayos to.. bat kung kailan ako nagaayos ng buhay ko dun dumadating ag hindi inaasahan. sana maayos pa namin waaaa bigla biglaan niya n lng ngyari ang hindi inaasahan :(( sana lang talaga sana ... coz im willing to risk. sulivan kew ano ba gusto mo para maging masaya ka na at makalimot ka na :(( sana maramdaman mo na gusto kitang tulungan nung una pa lang SOLEIL bumalik ka na ahuhuhuh

isang araw na walang gana pagkatapos magenroll ganun lang.. hay walang buhay.. sana ganahan naman ako mamayang paguwi

bday ko ngayon!! saya wala akong gana magbday..

my hearts blown away with the wind passed by

exhausting naglaro ako ng goozu gang umaga 3am.. haha sana magkaroon na ako apprentice cane

another day have past without a trace of footprints
the wind must've blown it,buried under the sand
i'm still looking for it to come up and follow each others lead

another exhausting day
another breathe taken
another day my mind ruined
like a tattoo embed in me
still hoping for the blistering end